May 29, 2007

Happy. Sad. Emo. Contented. Everything in one.

Today is a day of all that. Yup. And I wonder why? It's satisfying. In a GOOD way. LOL.
Well, happy because today started well. I woke up and I had the ultimate breakfast. Well, not that I'm bragging about it or anything, it's called the ultimate in the menu (bacon, egg, beans and frankfurters, yum!) I realized that breakfast is the way to start any day. It makes you happy for some reasons. haha. I should just go for exercise. Endorphin (a hormone produced in our body after exercising) makes us happy. But I'm just lazy! haha. And I'm complaining when I gain weight. We, humans, are living in denial. That's just life! And it makes the world go round!

So, we had a discussion. Thanks to some really gung-ho people in class, we have to submit a proposal for psychology next week, when it's due in July. Thanks a lot. NOT! We had a fun time discussing, although two of our dedicated and hardworking group members has to work today.

I wouldn't say I was sad. More like emo. It's sometimes too much is in your head. I lost count of my assignments. It's that bad. Depressed mode! la la la. And the weather this two days, is really extreme. On Monday, it was gloomy the whole day. Raining the whole day, basically. Most probably, it's from Thailand. You know how the guy always brings rain wherever he goes, and it has such big impact this time, it affected Malaysia as well. You know what I'm talking about... haha... And I was just thinking of gloomy monday. That's what people say about Mondays anyway. As gloomy as it can be, I liked Monday. A rainy day is always soothing and warm under the blanket with a really good book or song. hehe.

Contented. Well, the satisfying part. It's like being able to feel different emotions in a day or two, nothing beats that. Today was awesome, I enjoyed class... But I really have to HIT WACK myself for being apologetic to Gary when he told me I did well in my long journal entry. That word just slipped out. Because it was like 4-5 pages long, and .. SO WHAT?!? He called me cibai for that. OUCH. but that's just Gary. lolz. haha. FYI, that's not the contented part. haha...

And just now, SIGH. BIG SIGH. As ugly as the new SEGI might look, it does look awesome. The swimming pool is to DIE-FOR! It looks like a mosque though. haha. I don't know why I feel jealous. Weird. But, do check it out.. No need to go there, just follow the link for pictures. Hah! I so badly want a campus! A real campus. IACT... Sigh... haha..

Oh yeah. It's really weird we don't have PR lecture today, although I needed the break. So does Hardip after yesterday's heated argument in class. It was like an off-day for us! haha. Everyone went cuckoo (even QT!), probably the teh-ais we had at the mamak! hahah...

I'm still contemplating on what to major in. Now that, suddenly everyone wants to go into broadcasting, I feel like I'm suck into the bourgeoisie world! hahah.. That's an overused term now. STOP. okay.

Hah. I think; therefore I am -Decartes- is also very oh-so-yesterday! Well, actually a century ago? haha. But I do think what he said was true, Keep out of the public eye, if you wish to live a happy existence. Immediately, you-know-who, pops out in my mind. I'm still rooting for them! I have faith! haha..

May 22, 2007

N95. It's to die for!

I've always dreamed of a slider phone. And this phone slides both ways! Lolz. I never really look back on Nokia phones really, after the discovery of SE. But this is real good! A bit pricey, it's slightly over RM 3K, but you can get the AP model, for around RM 2K.

It's a 3G phone, with GPS (it comes with the Asia map, for original models), and basically a compact version of a computer, oh, did I mention about the 5 megapixels? Pretty cool for a phone.

I'm trying to persuade my dad to use it. But I highly doubt he would go for something so high end, looking at the 6610i, he's using now, he's still loving it. Maybe when the price tumbles down a little, he'll probably consider it. Haha.. Let the PR campaign begin. Research/Planning starts!

May 20, 2007

Here I am once again. Where was I? A bit backtracked huh? A little comment left by Ms Jamie Lioh, "Hey I don't see your updates di, where have you been?" Haha... Well, not the exact words, but you get what I mean. It's not easy at all, to juggle between assignments and all. Well, not exactly assignments, I'm just starting on that one. The classes we're having this semester is already enough to tire me out, leaving flat on my back. And I chose to sacrifice the blog, well, for a while, that is. And I chose today, of all days, I've been sick for the entire week, still having a very bad cough, and still recovering, really. I also started my Intermediate Japanese class (I've been waiting so long to reach this level, about a year now, yeah!) It's not gonna be easy, but I've plan to take things slowly and steadily, juggling between classes (which includes psychology, I'll start on that later), and assignments (15 of them and still counting!) God, have mercy on me. That leaves out with well, no time for myself, I'm totally covered for the week, even Sunday, I have something on. So yeah, it's a do or die, I need not to procrastinate any longer and do what I am supposed to do, and it's not really blogging. ^___^;;

So speaking about classes, I just need ramble on it. I have been trying to keep myself upbeat for classes even when I'm sick, really sick, be optimistic about it. But that's it. I need to vent it out. It's really tough and I'm not going to put up a cover for it. It's really tough! This is the semester, the do or die semester... I don't know whether I'll be able to survive it, but I'll hope for the best. I don't even know whether there's hope for me or not. So far, the only class I have been really enjoying is PR (I don't believe it myself). Seriously. I wonder whether Hardip's pr skills have some magical voodoo spell in it?? lolz.. I cannot believe it myself, I have been evaluating, thinking about the classes and all, I actually like PR the most. Hey, at least you have to give me abit of credits, going for PR class, when I'm half dead, sick... It must have been some determination, but I'm trying to keep myself upbeat, and go for it. As tough as the classes might be, I shall never give up until the very end. I don't take no for an answer.

The subjects this semester have been real eye openers for me. In the 1st, 2nd classes of Media Criticism, the same time, the VT shooting rampage issue came up, which I was deeply disturbed. Mr Gary, our lecturer, opened my eyes, by commenting on the people in well, let's say Pakistan. When one purse gets snatched, everyone will throw stones at the theft, and eventually he'll either get injured or die. He asked the class one very simple question, why did the people in VT all scrambled and hide when faced with the shooter? Why didn't they stood up and threw chairs at him? Because he had a gun in his hand? And the people are like what 30 in a class? It's only in nature that people lie on the ground because they were afraid. By these words, suddenly I realized a certain new perspective of that situation. He never said anything about racism? He never mentioned it's a pity that 33 people died? Enough of that, we need to learn how to solve it instead of wallowing of someone's dead, and be realistic.

And for PR. We watched this video, entitled: The Invisible Children. About this 3 ignorant, American teens who went to Uganda, to see for themselves the suffering of people, and what they found out is the abduction of children there, being made into soldiers killing people, and of course the poverty, the hunger faced by the people there. But what is being highlighted was these invisible children. The sufferings of the children. How fear turned into violence, such young little children, with limited education, shelter, food, water, fear for those people that would come and take them away, forcing them with guns, and license to kill whoever is in their way. Not following their orders would only mean one thing, being killed. The 3 ignorant and foolish teens I mentioned just now, well, ignorance turned into interest and knowledge and when they returned, they created a site for the invisible children to collect funds for these needy children. It was something that we should all take notice of, knowing that in a certain part of the world, children are suffering, and no one is actually doing anything. We're living here, so peacefully, but yet complaining of what we don't have. While what those children living in the bus park, shivering in fear every day and night, with nothing to look forward the day after, only for survival. In their minds, it's better off dead at times.

It's nice to have these new ways of looking at things. I don't know whether to be happy or not at times, it's really tough but at the same time, it slowly changes the way I think now.

I'm still having a hard time at Psychology now. Not easy to break this one. There's a lot of thinking to be done, it's really hard for me to crack the code. On whether the it's freewill vs determinism? Mind or Brain first? Or Nature or nurture? These 3 issues, that it's attempting to study. I just hope I can digest this somehow. I have finding all these subjects tough. It's challenging, and it's all good, nothing beats a good challenge. I just hope I'll be alive when this semester finally comes to an end.

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